This morning I needed a little inspiration.
Years ago, when Dan and I were freshly married, immersed in finding out our roles in the church body, and learning about how we better ourselves as one and not just two; we attended a conference. A speaker, teacher, and author (one of my all time favorites) Dr. Dan Allender led a session on Character vs. Character. In other words, how has your past and present contributed to the person God created you to be in that story of day to day. It was life changing. I still listen to the recording of the session every now and again to get fresh eyes.
I tuned my I-Pod onto the recording from 2003. I was taken back to the auditorium, the words smashing into my brain with fervency--yes, tragedy, emergency, beauty, joy, it has all added up to a part of who I am, and what story I was created to tell. Little did I know then, that at that conference, 9 months later our story would change--our first son, Ethan was born.
Of course, Isaac's chapter started 3 years later, and my storybook was flowing smoothly...
But then the difficult news came. My little boy wasn't like everyone else.
I pause the I-Pod for a minute...remembering that day of testing and analysis. Remembering all the moments that led up to that point where I knew the story wasn't going to be anything like what I had expected or hoped...
And then...I press play, and listen to Dr. Allender:
"God is our author...He is our authority...and he is writing your life today. You're not a finished story. You are a character in God's story because He is authoring you. As a character, as a face, as a name, you are distinct from all others. All before you and all after you. There is no one, no one, NO ONE, ever to be like you in the whole history of humanity...You were created to reveal something about God that no one on the face of the earth will do the way YOU were meant to do."
I wonder if that conference I attended years before Isaac was even imagined, was truly meant for him.
I trust in a God who does not make mistakes, and whose timeline is perfect, even if it doesn't seem like it to me. I have a story that tells about His faithfulness and His purpose for me. Isaac was one of those wonderful surprise endings to a chapter that seemed hopeless.
But the story goes on, and life continues. I am purposing to seek out more of God today, taking comfort in His perfect story for Isaac...for Ethan...for my husband, Dan...and for myself. I pray you do the same.
The plot thickens...