Rewind twenty four years...it's my 10th birthday. Because being born a few days after Christmas has it's negatives (let's face it, sharing a birthday the same week as Jesus kind of puts my birthday at the end of the totem pole...) I have learned to enjoy the little things--they mean so much more to me. 1988 was one of the memorable birthdays--I had a sleepover with some of my friends, and each part of that 24 hours is still alive in my mind like a Technicolor remake. Everything from the talent show we did, to my dad pretending to be "the blob" and scaring us all to death.
Fast forward to 2008...it's my 30th birthday. My husband and friends threw me a surprise party that will forever be a highlight of my life. It's not easy to surprise me, but they did--and severely. I almost had a heart attack when I walked through the swinging kitchen door of my friends' house to hear "SURPRISE!" Sitting around with those who were, and are, so dear to my heart was priceless.
Of course...if you can rewind again to December 28th, 2006, you'll find me sitting up in my hospital bed. I can still remember that beach front scene framed on the wall directly across from me. I stared at it, trying to imagine sand between my toes curling, breathing during my labor with one of the most fantastic, painful, surprising, and amazing gifts I have yet to experience. A new life. One that would challenge every fiber of my existence, and thrill me deeper than any birthday surprise ever could. On the morning of December 29th, 2006, I was holding my baby boy snug in my arms. Looking back at that moment, I realize I had sort of been prepared for that exciting fearful moment--what lies ahead? And being filled with hope and peace at the prospect of the journey. God knew I'd need it.
Every birthday comes with fears and often times, unmet expectations. I have learned through each December to soak in each moment--even if you AREN'T the headliner. The beauty of life isn't found in avoiding the hard parts, it's created in experiencing and conquering--adding another small medal (or, huge trophy) to your heart's collection. That's what each yearly milestone is about, and that's what I love about December 29th.
As the snow still falls, and Isaac sits on my lap, wiggling and singing in his loudest voice, "HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUUUU!" I'm so thankful for the memories, thankful for the fears, because I have shelves overflowing with reminders of victories.
|Best. Gifts. Ever.|